Laughs and Lobotomies

I did not learn to read until I was eight and a half. Not from lack of trying – it just wouldn’t click. By the end of second grade it had and I could read. I tried so hard, and it became precious to me. From then until I started rowing in high-school I went through a book a week, sometimes two. I wanted them new because I liked the smell. It got to the point where my parents said my book habit was getting pricey could we go to the library I read so much. When I grew up, I swore I’d have a room that was just a library. It was what I wanted more than anything.

I also kept a journal until I started medication from that time.

Antipsychotics can cause anhedonia, an extreme apathy

I think I’ve read maybe one novel since I started medication in 2010. i stopped journaling too.

I lost the thing I valued most.

And at 35 I don’t know what hobbies to have.

But in this blog I’ve started the journal again so that’s something.

My partner and I will have a one bedroom apartment.

He promised one day he will build me that library.