I’ve only recently started dreaming again. And while I do have what some would call nightmares, they don’t rattle me. Because I wake up and I have memories and real life things that are much worse.
One time I shared a room in a psych ward with a young woman who had night terrors.
She’d wake up with blood curdling screams.
And it’s been 20 years since I’ve really reacted strongly to dreams.
But I had a nightmare recently.
Where in it I was kicking someone trying to cause me harm. And it was vivid. and the kick woke me up. And I was gasping and my heart was beating faster.
And while it rattled me.
Maybe it is dreams like those that tell you you are still alive.
Laughs and Lobotomies 