I can’t tell you what it’s like to lose one’s mind. Because honestly it never really puts itself back together. And I’m not even sure it was whole to begin with.
How can any of us know what sanity really is?
As a child I used to have these times where I would have this very strong sense of de ja vu. And other times I would feel like everything around me was nothing but a dream, a mirage. I had corporeal form – but if I reached out to touch, to feel, anything – it would fall through my fingers like ash or vanish into a wisp of smoke.
So maybe I’ve just lived in different layers of insanity.
Maybe we all do to some degree.
Much of the last few years I’ve shielded in a way in my mind.
Not that I’ve backed out per se – but I think a lot of it is too much to think about.
I can pull a memory from that time if prompted- but otherwise they stay a bit muted.
I think I can’t and won’t ever truly process the last 5 years.
Maybe this site is an attempt to try.
Laughs and Lobotomies 