My primary doctor asked me if I was happy with my psychiatrist.
I said I’ve tried a few, as well as pretty much every psych med available.
I think he thinks I’m unstable.
That I’ve made up the things that have happened.
Maybe I just need more drugs.
That will fix things.
I’ve been down that route for many years.
I can leave the house most days. The panic attacks are fewer.
Medication doesn’t change the past.
It doesn’t make my personality palatable.
It doesn’t make me not traumatized, and it also doesn’t make me not me.
There’s no miracle cure. Didn’t they teach you that in med school?
Or maybe he really is suggesting a lobotomy?
It’s about the only thing I haven’t tried.
Laughs and Lobotomies 