Whoever made those damn infomercials about mental health and I’m so glad I didn’t jump and blah blah blah I had so much to live for blah blah.
Has anyone ever related?
Why can’t they make them realistic?
I wasn’t sure I wanted to off myself so I said I wanted to off myself so I’d get help so now I’m here in the psych ward with people who definitely wanted to off themselves and are really mad that they fucked up their whole lives including the follow through of this shit show.
Also everyone in this situation has a sense of humor.
Except the doctors or nurses.
Once a patient escaped.
We knew most of the “codes” called.
One of the other patients was saying the hospital staff couldn’t touch the escapee.
So we were all wondering, if they can’t touch them, until the police get there, how are they going to stop them.
So this other patient, full beard, marks of a failed attempt still on him, comes in right on cue, with “stop in the name of love”, hand and all.
I hope they’re all well. Because I’ve wanted help. And I’ve been mad as fuck that I woke up. And life is just something we get through no matter how hard.
No matter what anyone else says.
Because we could live 100 years.
Or 100 seconds.
And I love my husband with all my heart.
And I need to believe it gets easier.
And so much can happen in the blink of an eye.
In a nanosecond
As Oscar Wilde said,
We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.
Laughs and Lobotomies 