Am I still the woman you fell in love with?
And if so, which one?
The first one? Who was lighter, in a purple dress, with a big smile because she held on to hope like a lifeline, the only lifeline, and bitched about the vegan carrots.
The one you laughed with at the diner? I fell in love that day – you were just so…..you. We didn’t have to touch. Or say anything mushy. It just felt real. February 13th, 2020 is the day I fell in love with you.
Was it the day you gave me the muscle roller for working on my stiffness after working out? And then we made out in your car in a Starbucks parking lot for the first time before we went in and you ordered for us, stupid grin on your face, arm around my shoulder. You were destined for coaching and personal training.
We faded apart during covid
And then you came back to me.
We saw your friends at our second first date after you had cancelled on them. You went and said hi anyway. I remember the Bubble
Tea after, and you kissed me, up against the car in the parking lot, and then dropped me home and told me you loved me.
I love you till the end of days husband, you have been here for more for poorer and in sickness than anyone deserves, tell me how to hope for better again.
Laughs and Lobotomies 