Laughs and Lobotomies

A quiet falls at night

Sometimes haunted

But it is also the only time I feel peace

I never slept as a child

Not because I didn’t want to

I just couldn’t

So I’d think alone for hours and hours

About everything and anything

While the whole world slept

And for once I had peace in body and mind

And then I learned to read

And I found a new world – a world I belonged in

Many worlds

Worlds I could live in for a day a week or forever

Worlds that for the first time in my young life loved me back

And in that darkness and silence and peace I was alive and I was on fire and I was me.

So in the hardest times I crave the night

And struggle to survive the days that never end.